Lurking and then some
Hi!
A bit redundant but as the title says above, I'm lurking.
I haven't been on deviant for over a couple years now and I'm finding that I am having to navigate the new platform as it's been upgraded quite a bit! ( Cool, now let me feel old as I do so lol) I'm currently toggling between my passion of fiber arts ( Crochet and sewing) and writing. If you're not in the mood to read updates on my life, feel free to bounce and go elsewhere, it's cool. If you are wanting to know what I've been up to, awesome! I'll carry on.
Family: I'm back to being a mother of Two. My little Jade was born this year in January and I've been doing the whole mom deal full throttle. I also have a mini zoo of pets; 2 guinea pigs, 2 cats a fish and 2 dogs. So I get bogged down with all the life stuff of keeping the whole shebang together. I'm starting to slowly gravitate to drawing again, so maybe if I can keep my art supplies out of little hands, I just might have something more to show than this old, dusty remnants of my Hodge podge of really old and incomplete stuff. Or maybe spam you with cute crochet creations *shrug* either way my gears are starting to switch from my wheel of obsessive hobbies soon.
Work: I'm back to work, which leaves me very little downtime to do anything fun. I enjoy it and am thankful for it. I'm also advancing in positions pretty quickly, so with that comes responsibilities and training I need to keep up on.
Creative stuff: I haven't drawn anything in forever. Unless I'm writing mini novella's with characters, I typically don't find the desire to pick up a pencil or pen. For the past 6 years I've been heavy into crochet and I mostly enjoy making stuff for children. I could probably make some cute posts with my creations for fun, but I'm not sure that this platform is the best for fiber arts *shrugs* but who knows?
Anyway, that's my honest life update in a nutshell.
Laters! * goes back to lurk mode.
I'm used to mature content, many of which are interesting and creative to a degree, some are not. In the past I wouldn't care so much and simply look around DA for things I find interesting or creative, except lately all I am seeing are pre-teen to teenage girls posting naked selfies of themselves in an attempt to gain a crowd, and wonder why they are treated like 'sluts, whores' ect. 1. I have a young daughter who is going to be 2 and it greatly bothers me seeing young pre-teens taking sexy pictures of themselves for adults to see, and later notice that they are garnering attention of older men seeking a hook up. I feel if the person clearly doesn't look 18 or older it needs to be shut down and removed, these images are popping up every day more and more, and it's frankly making me sick. 2. There is a huge difference between artistic nude and a shameless naked self pic to garner attention for the wrong reasons, we know that fine line and it needs to be made all the more clear. 3, more and more porn is getting uploaded and not having the mature content put on it, this is either a fluke or it's becoming a thing because 'god forbid we hurt anyones feelings' and run this site properly. I've nothing wrong with porn, but there are sites for that for a reason.
Maybe it is because I'm getting older and have a young child, and have terrible worries about her doing the same thing these teens and pre-teens are doing. Maybe DA has gone downhill and it's time to go to another platform until that platform becomes just as bad as this one is getting. Agree or disagree with me, I really don't care because i just want to express how bothered i am by how often I see these very young girls doing this. As a mother, I don't like it. not one bit.
Coming along
I know I posted the sadness that has covered my life but I'd like to now bring you to the positives I do have. My little Samantha is doing very well and is my little ray of sunshine when I need it. I've also taken to sewing, drawing doesn't really do anything therapeutic for me and I've found making garments for my little girl, or any child for that matter does wonders on keeping my mind busy. I'll be sharing those completed works here and sometimes I'll be selling some of them to keep my hobby going, I thank all of you for your time and I hope to get back into the swing of things here soon. On another note, I do not like the changes that have become what is the current DA, all sorts of complicated nonsense :/
again I have no idea how long it's been yet I know it's been long enough and what I have to share is no good news.
I'm starting off with this first because I have gotten through what I'm about to say the best I humanly can, and that I am okay and doing the best I can. June 16th I lost my son to drowning. It was an accident and happened when I was away on an errand while he was in the care of family, i received the call and by then it was too late. My Son is an angel now, he always was in life and he continues to be one of the most precious things i've ever had the privilege to have in my life even if it was so short.
I am coping, seeing a therapist and keeping a very close eye on his little sister Samantha and doing the best I can to move forward. I know many of you have very diverse beliefs if any at all, but my son has come through to let me know he is okay where he is and that he isn't this 'nothingness' we seem to fear here. They were personal experiences and he alone saved me from doing probably horrible things to myself, even though I was not present and very well would have stopped him should I have not gone on that errand. This will likely be one of the hardest things any of my friends here could ever read and for some time I wasn't sure even mentioning it would do any good. All I ask is that those of you who have children in your lives, please make sure they are in good hands and that if you are not comfortable with something like a pool, easy open door with no security latch and just anything that makes you uneasy, follow that instinct and act on it despite how " okay" others will feel about it and make no change or how to " not worry about it" worry about it because things happen beyond our control, and many of these things are preventable.
With the heaviest of hearts
Quartz
Swarmed!
My textbooks are expensive and have the tiniest of print that make my eyes weep in the effort to even read and the information is long, intense and ever fascinating! I am both thrilled and terrified of what is ahead of me because up until now I have been attending college's meant for the arts, and now I am immersed in a harder yet more rewarding curriculum. I plan on throwing an occasional sketch up here when I have the time and need to escape the heavy reading and assignments, but for now I shall be lurking and lurking actively!
Now, there is something else I want to share, a friend of mine is in dire straights and is in need of commission work, please check her out and support her because it really is a dire need
has her journal up with all the info, so click here and read!